So Jayson is getting big, the summer is almost over... And I think I want another baby... Yes, I said it.. another one... But my inlaws do not think we should start for another one just yet. and if my husband ever saw me say this he would probably kill me. I just wont let him in on my thoughts, not yet anyway. Im on birthcontrol and I dont want to do anything without talking to him about it. But i really think I want another baby soon. So Jayson is close with someone

Sorry, I have not posted in such a long time. I dont know why I just havent been soo busy lately.
So now I am a married woman. July 25th to be exact. Woohoo go me. It is not like anything changed..
Just my last name. And the baby is getting big.. well he is still on the tiny side but almost walking completely... yay

So everything has been going great. I have a new job at Motherhood Maternity.. A maternity clothing store. and Dan just got a new job.. SO were doing good. Im excited for Jayson's first Halloween.. Yay!! hes a little devil so cute.. We power cleaned the house this weekend which was good we needed to do.. and try the pumpkin pie blizzard at dairy queen!!!!

So everything has been going alright so far. Dan's cousin got married yesterday the wedding was breathtaking. Plain and simple. She didnt have all the bridesmaids, only two. Didnt do the traditional rose bouquet. She had Sunflowers. very simple dress and vail. But honestly this is how I would like my wedding. Although they butchered Pachebel's name in the programs. She had Canon D by Pachebel instead of here comes the bride. Which is what I wanted to do. They spelled it tachelleel. Which is completely wrong. but anyway the  reception was alright. The food was cold and dry. and the music was tacky. But dan requested our song so we could have our first dance to it.. and they played it .. it was sweet..

So things are going ok I guess. Hmm. Dan pulled another disappearing act again. But oh well. I have come to terms with that he was going to do it a lot. But I told him if he does it again I am leaving. Thats that. I deserve better then this. I deserve to be respected and not walked all over. And my baby deserved better. I kills me to put Jayson to bed at night with out Dan, and have him wake up and his father still not be there. I live with him. I think the baby needs that in his life his parents being there for him. So we spoke about it. He brought me home flowers yellow ones my favorite. But I guess he thought that they would speak for themselves. But they dont. Anyway after a glass was thrown and broken all over the kitchen floor and he threw his keys at the wall and they stuck we talked about it and hopefully things will change really soon... Soon I hope cause if not, I will take matters into my own hands.

Dan's mind when he does things like this. He got mad at me cause I didnt want to drag the baby out to buy Dan a red bull. So he freaked. And then we got into this heated argument and I threw the "You dont help with the baby at all", Which by the way isnt a lie. I have to force him to take care of the baby.. He hasnt fed him in god knows how long. He quit his job..... and blames me for not being able to get a job. Its not my fault the last job fired me cause I had no flexiablity.. Because of the job he had. So now hes angry cause he told me to leave. I didnt say I was leaving. But if he doesnt love me then I am going to leave.

Yea, So things are going ok I guess. I haven't fought to much with Dan and I'm trying hard not to. Although he went out again and stayed out all night. he says he went by himself. But I think he went to serenas. But Im not going to argue with him. Atleast he came home. It was 5 in the morning.

Things are looking up at little. My mom gave me 2,000 to pay bills and go christmas shopping which is great cause im broke. So for christmas presents for Dans mom and dad I have a photographer coming to my house with her set up and we are doing a set of pictures with Jayson with only angel wings on. with a black background. And im going to get special frames and what not. I am also planning on a scrapbook starting from birth to now of him..

So it happened AGAIN.. Third times a charm right???? I dont know how much of this I can stand ya know? But this time I had no idea where he was at all. He answered his phone once well text. then not again till the next morning. I couldnt sleep at all. An to come to find out he was all the way in cape may villas where his ex girlfriend that he was so in love with lives killed me .... But luckily he was smart enough to know I would leave him if I found out that he went there. welll to make a sorta long story short. I called everyone we knew and tried finding him all night, no one knew where he was. At all. They even called around for me.. But he finally answered his ohine the next morning. We got into it. not infront of the baby of course. I finally called his mom and told her the whole thing. The only woman I have to talk to.. gahhhh. Someone show him how I feel.

So I let dan go out again tuesday night to go pick up something from his friends. Trusting him not to disappear again... And you know what he does... I'll only be there 10 mins to chill. after ten minutes go by. !0 mmore minutes. .... 20 mins go by... 5 more minutes. another 20 goes by im leaving in 5 mins. 5 mins go by. Im leaving right now. ill be home in a half hour. What goes through his head when he does this... I have no idea... Seriously after what  happened the other day  you would think he wouldnt pull crap like this.. And he tries to tell me I dont like him anymore and all that BS. When He knows I love him. Hes the one always trying to go out and leave me home with the baby and hes trying to get space.  I just dont know what to do my life is a mess.

Well the other night wasn't so great. Dan decided when he was bringing home his friends, that he wasnt coming back for the night.
He stopped answering his phone and texts. for 2 hours. But when I finally did get ahold of him he tells me he drove some drunk girl home and partied at their house. Uh oh, so that doesnt go over to well with me... So im freaking out having an anxiety attack and a panic attack. He tells me hes not coming home. So then I tell him im taking the baby and leaving. And you know what he says. Im still not coming home. So I packed my bags and got ready to leave, my friend was suppose to come pick me up. But che decides that she wasnt coming. So im all packed and ready to go , he shut his phone off which got me even more mad... So i decided im leaving in the morning. My friend said shed pick me up at 7 am. so 7am rolls around and my friend is nowhere to be heard of. He finally comes home ay 12 in the afternoon. And i still dont know the whole story...

Dan's cousin  Joleen is getting married on oct. 11th so we went out to look for a dress and shoes for me. And we ended up getting Jayson the cutest outfit. its a little button down blue collared shirt and a pair of kacki<sp> pants. Soooo adorable. Atlest this time he slept through the whole shopping thing. Usually he wakes up for a bottle everytime I make it into the dressing room. Perfect timing right. Well anyway he had the night at Grandma's and Grandpa's. So Dan and I had the night alone which was great.

So Jayson is getting better at rolling himself over. We did tummy time and hes really great with holding his head up, he looks ready to crawl. Except he doesnt know what to do with his legs. Hes so cute. I cant believe how big hes getting. This month he'll be  5 months. The time has gone. By christmas time he'll be starting to sit up... Yay,  Jayson's first christmas this year. Last christmas was great we spent it over Dan's parents house and it was great. I turned 21 when I was pregnant with him... So this year will be a little better.

Jayson is just getting over his very first ear infection. Because we live by the beach the wind irritated his ear. He loved taking the amoxicillin though. LOVED it. At first we thought it was an allergic reation the the kitten we got him, but  it wasn't. Luckily cause then we would have to get rid of poor mr. Bojangles. But atleast we found out he's going through the begining stages of  teething. the drool the fever, the poop. My little boy is growing.

<td> </td>First off, my pregnancy was pretty normal. The morning sickness, the swollen feet, the cravings... Till near the end. I got sick a lot at in my 7th month, I gotten a upper respitory infection and was sick for about a week. By my 8th month I was already 2cm dialated, I worked throughout my pregnancy in a pharmacy developing photos. I know I know, not totally safe but they wouldnt change my position while I was pregnant.
On April 15, A woman backed right into my driver side door while I was the one driving. It was my first accident, so I was pretty freaked out. I ended up going to the hospital and was admitted for 7.5 hours that night. We didnt get home till about 12:30 am. I had 5 major contractions that I didnt feel so the nurses kept me to monitor the babys activity. Exactly a week later I had the baby.
The labor was pretty easy. I mean really easy. 45 min of active labor and it was all over. My water broke around 11:30 am. I called the Dr's office to see what I should do because I wasnt feeling any pain and I wasnt feeling any contractions. they told me to get myself to the hospital. So I finished packing my bag ( I didnt have it fully packed , he wasnt due for 2.5 weeks). Then I drove myself to the hospital. I called my fiance and let him know that I was going to the hospital cause my water broke and the Dr told me to go to the hospital. I got there about an hr later. Yes, I drove myself.. Not seeing there was anything wrong with it... And I walked up to the maternity floor and told the nurses I thought my water broke.
After about a half hour of paperwork I was brought to a nice big birthing room. Shore Memorial hospital has the nicest maternity ward I've ever seen. And the best nurses. Finally Dan showed up all dirty from work. It was his first day back and I jinxed him by asking what happened if my water broke when he was at work the night before. In the hospital I was pretty relaxed I was having contractions but I wasnt feeling them. The Dr. came in and confirmed that my water did break , but I had hours before the baby. Dan's mom showed up at 5 after work, and kept us company. It was nice to have support when I needed it.
I was put on pitosin all day to induce labor, But it didnt seem to be working. The Dr came in at 6:30 pm to evaluate me again before he ran to a quick dinner down the street with his wife. He told us that we had hours before the baby was gonna come, So Dan and his mom left to go shower and get some clothes. At about 7:45 I started having severe contractions extremely close together. I wanted an epidural, But when the nurse checked me the baby's head was right there.. Dan and his mom got back at 8:00pm. By then I wasnt breathing right and I was in incredible pain... The nurse came in and evaluated me one more time. And said the baby was ready to come. Then paged the Dr, who was just pulling into the parking lot and told him what was going on and he ran up to my room.
And a few minutes later... BOOM a baby boy was born.

Jayson Anthony Vieth
April 23, 2008 8:31pm
6lb 3oz 18.5 in